October 06, 2004 - 04:11
It's been quite sometime since the last entry that I wrote last week. Have been busy *as usual* with the academic semester just starting. Also, amalin is due to be in the reception class next January. So, the school has scheduled her to be taken to the reception class to just get the feel of the surrounding. At present, she just has to attend the nursery for 2 hours. Once she attends the reception officially, the school time will be from 9am to 3.30pm. I hope it won't give her a shock since she is going to spend the time longer compared to now. But, I won't worry much about that as she really likes schooling. When it's a holiday or even on weekend she keeps on pesturing me to send her to school.If it's the case, then, for the rest of the day, I would have to keep on repeating that it's a holiday, nobody's going to school, kierya, hannah, james or even agash won't be at school, bla...bla...bla...on and on. Hehe...to those mommies out there...wait till ur child starts to talk and u'll find that it is harder to play with words when it comes to these little tots.
My mind is actually not in a very good state at the moment. Not that I'm suffering from mental health problem...don't misunderstood ye people.Some people can ignore these kind of things but not me. It's messing with my head and I sometimes find it very hard to deal with. You know, when it comes to dealing with people who just don't have the same thinking that you have, it will always bring argument in the end. It is sad though when you thought that you really know the person and you actually don't. And when other people have already proven that the person is hard to deal with, I still give the person chance to get closed to me. But, in the end, I am the one who gets hurt. Since the situation gets worse, we finally have to come to a decision which is a very hard one. But, it really made the person very angry. No matter what,it still has to be made to avoid anything worse to happen. We thought that it is the best way to save the already half broken relationship *and i hope it is the right desicion that we made*. I am now prepared to what other people might interpret on the decision that we made. But heck with them, it is us that have to live with it, not them. As long as life can get back to the way it is...other things can be shoved away. Right now what we are thinking about is a free of mind from anything yg remeh temeh ni. We have a mission to complete here, that is to finish our study. Other than that is a waste of energy and time that is not worth to spend on.
Have to pen off now...it's almost 5 am and i really need to get on with my work.Take care to those out there!
