January 12, 2005 - 19:35
I'm feeling very disappointed right now. Why??? There is a person called A and this person knows damn well how I feel about the so called 'behind my back' incidents. I thought A has changed *well at least up until recently*. I told this person over and over again that I don't want such thing in our friendship. And this person promised that it won't be the case anymore. Then I found out about this 'incident' myself and I was mad at first. Ironically, the anger was not for long which amazed me as well. When I think of the same thing that happened when I was a bit younger *not that I'm OLD now heh...masih tidak mengaku tua nampaknye* I wouldn't surely let it go for days or it could be dragged on even for weeks. What?...am I losing my sense and feeling now? Anyway, this person A hasn't known that I knew what actually happened. I sure will confront A and ask what is actually going on. A'd better come up with a good excuse. That's the very least A owed me. Well, as I'm writing this sentence, the anger and the disppointment both vanished into thin air. Takde perasaan apa2 dah. It's as if what A did was not a big deal anymore.Hey...wake up! This is serious girl...don't just let it go. You don't want this to go unsettled before it is too late, do you?Whatever it is, I think the reason why I feel the way I'm feeling is because I am more mature now. There's actually more sense in my mind and most importantly it's more of the positive ones. That really explains why.
